I’ve seen my cat Sunny in a lot of really dicey circumstances, even those in which he was on the brink of death. He has always expressed a total sense of equanimity no matter what was going on in his life. It seems he has passed this quality on to me.
Sunny disappeared a couple of days ago. I don’t know for sure if he is alive or dead. I have put out posters and sent out email alerts and talked to neighbors and searched sheds and contacted an Animal Communication student of mine, who has gone on to specialize in lost animal cases, for a second opinion. I have done all I am able to DO. In the past these circumstances have been accompanied by a great deal of pain in the “not knowingness” of the situation.
As I sit here now though, not knowing, I am filled with awe, wonder and joy at the BIG spirit of that little cat. That has always been the amazing thing about Sunny – that vast spirit that constantly reminds me of the greater universal quality of our embodied lives.
I was going to write a bit here about the 10 years we have spent together but once I’d written the first sentence it became clear that it is more a book length story than a blog post. One day I may write that whole story – it would probably be the best aspect, and the most telling part of my life to hand down. As it is I am just going to be content now to pass on how grateful I am to that little cat for the lessons learned.
Thank you Sunny, where ever you are. You have liberated me. Where ever you are you are right here sitting in my soul – and it feels like God.